what you are doing now?hmmmmm.bet you wont even entertain me.yawns

Went to Chad birthday party yesterday.had lots of fun and played truth or dare.kinda lame.Ate loads of chicken wings cause it was simply delicious can?My goodness,went youtube surfing and saw lots of lame video.Extreme lameness i meant!HAH,THANKS CHAD.you are really nice&i mean it(:

there comes a part of life when one will have to walk himself&i think i am in that part.hiaks!TAKE CAREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE(;

that i have made.to tell you the truth,you had been my best-est sister i could ever ask for.Sorry was ruining it&i guess its too late,am i?


fuckingstupid.

what hezel said made sense,a hell lot.What issit that my heart wants?can somebody just scold me,maybe it will open everything up too.

STUDY IS A MUST.
I MUST STUDY.
I MUST DO WELL FOR Os.
I CAN DO IT.
propaganda shit.hahahahahs

its just ironic to think back a year before.things have change&i know i spoil it all but how do i amend it?

&thesameoldboringme.


GOD,i just want her to be happy.Nothing else,i swear.

yups,my relatives just left my house & i am dang tired.have not been sleeping properly for the past week and like finally,COURSEWORK is over.First of all,THANKYOU MRSPECK.no matter how i had misbehave,you still helped through.the amount of sacrifice you made for all of us overwhelming.90% of us were doing last minute work and you constantly keep giving advice.&we are really sorry for what happened today,it was not your fault at all.it was our own decision and you dont derserve to be scolded at all.We are the pnes creating trouble&i am sure everybody would agree with me that you are not at wrong.whatever it is,THANKS ALOT&SORRY FOR THE TROUBLE CAUSED.we will face the music!


&thespecialtreatmentthatsucks.

i have decided to open up my blog so WELCOME to you viewers.if you dont like what i post here,seriously.i shall be straightforward,fuck off.dont go around talking at my back about what i post here.thankyou for your co-operation =)

I am like so not done with my artwork and tomorrow is the date line.am i dead or am i dead?hahahhahs,no sense.actaully,i am rather satisfied with my work so far.Sure it does show that i am putting n effort.have been studying alittle here and there this few weeks.&i sense that i am stronger in physics now.WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEES!1 more month& I CAN DO IT.FOR MY FUTURE,or maybe our future.I wanna lead the most relaxing and simple life.

Oh ya,valerie introduce me to her friend in cchM & i think i was too gay?like totally!that he left the convo.relax dude if you ever see this.i am a straight guy!WO AI DE SHI NU REN.

&living with it.=)

finally got my picture up?took just awhile for me to do it & i did it the cheapo way.SECRET!(:

SOCCER was really bad today,totally no passion and there was no beauty in it.i was a lost kid in a big field and to make it worst,my boots spoiled halfway through first half.like @%#@&&#&*!rather happy with my running for the last 20minutes?yups,i solo all the way twice?only to be denied goals la,duhh!edmund doest really score goals.

I took my art home and i cant belief i actually did not touch it at all today,like wtf can?i woke up and watched 2hours of aiyoyo laushi,quite funny la.the way they act last time.then watched VMAs after that &Rihanna won the Video of the year with ELLA ELLA A A A UNDER MY UMBRELLA.

COLDNESS.

know what it feels like?loving someone who is in a rush to throw you away?bet you do,what i am experiencing you experience it before.i guess.norlyn,hows life?I know you are single&happy.or are you just afraid?i dont know what i am saying but i just feel it,that you seem to be scared of something but yet you are just trying to ignore that fear.am i right?

SOMANYQUESTIONSYETSOLITTLEANSWERS!

talk=quarrels.sigh.now what?

a bastard i guess.nothing i am doing seems right.I fucking ruin things everytime i do soemthing.how can i ever stop this and go back to my usual self?i want my old self back,the one that dont piss people off easily.RIGHT NOW,every conversation that i am in seems to be pissing people off.i am a unbearable fucking bastard.hell yeah,fuck off if you dont like me.

you wouldnt know until you let us try again.i,hearts you.right there,in my heart.

that last forever.As much as i have tried to avoid and stop thinking,its there everytime i close my eye or when i get bored or sometimes when i am doing stuffs.WHAT THE FUCK DID YOU DO TO ME GIRL?why are you unforgetable or issit meant to be?that i cant forget you.Yeah,you might just go ahead and say bullshit.Its freaking hard you know,to accept this.I FUCKING HELL CANT STAND IT,talking just that little to you everyday.its a fucking torture ordeal that i dont want to go through.

NORLYNCHOO,I FUCKING HELL LOVE YOU&I CANT LIVE PROPERLY WITHOUT YOU.

i can forget.
i can forget.
i can forget.
i can forget.
i can forget.
i can forget.
i can forget.
i can forget.
i can forget.
i can forget.
i can forget.
i can forget.
i can forget.
i can forget.
i can forget.
i can forget.
i can forget.
i can forget.
i can forget.
i can forget.
NO!
i cant forget.
i cant forget.
i cant forget.
i cant forget.
i cant forget.
i cant forget.
i cant forget.
i cant forget.
i cant forget.
i cant forget.
i cant forget.
i cant forget.
i cant forget.
i cant forget.
i cant forget.
i CANT forget!

You know,maybe it will take time.BUT I DONT WANT TO!what the fuck is wrong with me?HAHAS

SIGH,IS THE DAY COMING?THE DAY WE RUN OUT OF TOPIC TO TALK?

is this happening?we used to talk about every single thing under the sun,now its that few dry topic that we can hardly happily chat for a long time about.am i subconsiously changing the way i am?

i really wish to walk out of this maze,i am living in a land of confusion.every room have 2 doors,opened wrong&i ruin my life.can somebody guide me out?or even better,give me the answer.

I am knowing you lesser and lesser.we hardly converse till night,thats fine.but even so,we talk about the surface of our lifes.maybe an occasional deeper into the story.

LIFE'S LIKE THAT.

sighhh,what'ive done?

i destroyed everything time&again.What does it takes to be by your side?i am living in a world of contradictions.what do i want?what do you want?tell me please,its not like i am god.i know i cant get things the way i want.but at least i know i can make things happen if i do try.but when i try,the things stay the same.

i really do wish to know what are you thinking.its that hard to chat with you nowadays without you flaring up.whats with the fuck offs?its your new favourite word?just because something minor went wrong.you have to scold me right infront of everybody.FUCK OFF!You reply my message as and when you like,its that a hint that its impossible?that does means that i am just your casual friend now?

BLOODY BITCH YOU KNOW HOW MUCH I MISS YOU? FUCK IT! ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH